Chris is always saying "find your edge." I think I am on mine right now. Yes, it is true, what I last posted: I do have more energy and lightness. Yet, at the same time, I have never been more depressed, anxious and angry. All those extra pounds were a pretty good protective barrier from the deep crap inside. Now the barrier is down, and I am not sure what to make of how I feel. I feel better when I look in the mirror, dress for work, run faster, lift more, eat less ... and I feel so much worse when I test my husband's patience and support for the millionth time. Or I distance myself from my kids or my friends --to regroup, to make sense of it all.
I am familiar with this edge, and have worked hard to dull its cut. Guess there is more work to be done. With gratitude, I'll work this edge with this community. I think there is a light at the end of that rabbit hole, Patti, I really do.